Writing vs. Speaking

I've never considered myself a particularly good or engaging writer. I'm okay with academic research papers, but writing in my own voice has always been difficult for me. It's always seemed to strange to me how someone can take the same statement and sound completely different saying it vs. writing it. I personally think that I am a better talker than a writer, which isn't to say that I am talkative person because I'm not, but rather that I am better able to translate my thoughts through speaking than through writing. I'm really not sure why that is, since I obviously have more time to carefully plan out my words when writing, but I think it might be because I know that the person or people I'm talking to are listening, which makes me more aware of how my words sound. But that actually doesn't make much sense because putting my thoughts out there on the internet should be much more daunting since it will probably live on in some form or another for eternity, whether I like it or not. Or maybe its because I tend to over-think things when I write - much like I am right now.

Whatever the reason, I've always been aware of this fact and pretty much despised it. I idolize so many great writers and I think that I have some negligibly interesting thoughts that might be worth sharing, which makes me hate the fact that I can't write for shit. I lack a distinct voice, and as a result, any mildly share-worthy ideas I have manage to transform into generic asinine comments. You would have to pay me to read my own writing. But I suppose, to quote Mad Men, that is what happens when you have the artistic temperament but not the artistic talent.